Dear Guardian Angel,
A lot has changed since you left. I have grown up and became an adult. I’ve moved on to bigger and better things. Everyday people come into my life, but that doesn’t mean I have forgotten all about you. It’s the opposite actually. Once I get to know someone and we become friends, my first thought is that I wish that they can meet you. They are important to me just like you are. I can’t express how much I miss you. I have so many emotions that I have to express because of your absence.
Thank you. Thank you for being there for me during hard times. From the moment something goes wrong, I can always count on you for looking after me. Whether it’s because I had a bad day at school or I had a bad fight with a friend, I can always count on you for being at my side. Even though you are not physically by my side, I can still feel that you are with me through thick and thin. Never forget that you will always have a place in my heart. You also made me stronger. I feel that I can handle anything with you by my side.
I miss you. I miss you more than you will ever know. It’s been hard without physically having you with me. When I need to talk to someone that understands the situation. Most days I appear strong, but it’s always hard. But I do have my days where I break down and cry. The anniversary of the day you left is always the hardest. It’s a reminder of the worst day of my life. It was something that I couldn’t stop from happening.
I’m mad at you. I’m mad because you left me. After you went away many things have changed and most of it was not for the better. I felt like I lost my best friend. You put me in the worst position and I was insanely confused about what I should do. I don’t want to, but sometimes I blame you for leaving me. I feel guilty about it, but I can’t help it. I know it’s not your fault and I know that I shouldn’t blame you for anything, but I feel that you put me at a bad place. But when I blame you, I have to remember that it’s selfish. It wasn’t your fault that you left unannounced. I can be mad all I want, just not at you. At the person who felt that you needed to be taken away from us.
I’m sorry for you. I’m sorry that you had to miss some of the most important things. From raising a child to achieving your dreams. I am sorry that you could go on adventures and see firsthand how the world is changing. That you could see exotic places and travel the world with the person you love the most. I am terribly sorry that you are missing out and I wish I can take you with me.
In the end, life goes on. I know that you will always be with me. When I am going through a hard time or need someone to talk to, I know that I can talk to you. I have to thank you, I miss you, I am mad at you, and I am sorry for you. You will always be missed no matter what happens. I will make it my mission to see you again.
The person you left behind.