“There’s nothing wrong with being afraid. It’s not the absence of fear, it’s overcoming it. Sometimes you’ve got to blast through and have faith”-- Emma Watson
I know I talk a lot about all my favorite clothes and how confident I have been getting, but there is something that I want to talk about and it’s fear I had when trying on and how I became comfortable with everything. From wearing leggings to crop tops, I want to break it down (as best as I can) and explain why and what I was scared of in terms of fashion.
The first thing (that should be a little obvious) was crop tops. It’s no secret that I have been a little hesitant about wearing crop tops, because I was scared of showing my stomach. I was so scared of shirts that came up past my stomach that I always wore shirts that went past that. When I first started working out, I really wanted to try and push myself to wear crop tops. Something inside me always knew I would lean more on the plus/mid size category and I figured if that was the case, then I might as well get used to wearing crop tops and shirts that go above my stomach.
The second fashion fear of mine was leggings. I never liked how some were basically tights. To me, I always thought I looked bad and thought they would look too tight one me. So I would wear more loose jeans and sweatpants over leggings. At one point I wouldn’t wear jeans because they were also insanely uncomfortable. At one point I said F it, I’m just going to wear them and try to be comfortable.
The last fashion fear I had was two piece swimsuits. I can wear them now, but last season there was no way in Hell I was putting one on. The fact that I could even wear a swimsuit is a miracle. At first it was just one piece, but then the more my body changed the more I realized that I had to wear more two pieces that either included shorts or a skirt that covered a certain part of my legs. And there's the part about showing my stomach. But thankfully I was able to find some nice pieces (both one and two pieces) that have made me more comfortable with wearing it and about my body.
Throughout my time trying to get over my fashion fears, I have realized that it doesn’t matter what people think about me and what I wear. As long as I’m happy, I’m comfortable, and I’m doing it for me, that’s what matters.